TMH: Exhibit H

So, where do I began? I'm sitting in the crib watching Monday Night Football, just chillin...kinda bored. I being bored is like my life story lately, since winter break...it's a negative and positive in many ways. One, I just get chance to chill...and focus, two...no job, no money...nothing to do, not even a steady agenda. It's such a weird feeling...waking up and realizing, "what am I going to do today, oh....nothing".

Anyway, I'm just in the mood to write...get out some shit outta my mind a bit. This blog hasn't been too personal, but hey why not? Life has been crazy lately smh...sometimes I do believe it's all in the growing/learning experience. I consider myself a strong person...shit I been through Hell these past years. Being home is such a reality...a harsh one. when I'm at school, it feels like I'm always in the huge bubble...the outside world doesn't matter. When I return back to the island, my hometown...shit is tuff. I see the huge effects of the recession, and the people struggling.

I always thought, "When you take natural resources from a human being, they will enter into straight survival mode". People will kill, steal for shit they need to live, and that's a crazy concept to understand...but it's common for many. After all the mistakes I've made in my life, the outcome was me always losing shit...or shit taken away from me. These things vary...but some I consider them my OWN natural resources to survive. This created the frustration, and bitterness towards life in general.

...I'm in my survival mode...whether I like it or not...this is my reality. So I have two options, fight or crumble. I'm hustler...always been one, always will be...you can beg to differ. But, sometimes I just wonder...this shit wasn't my choice...I didn't choose to be force to find different ways to get money. Bad choices created slavery to the mighty dollar, I guess.

So in this new year...I have a lot changes to make. First, I have dig myself out this hole...and finally live comfortable and stress free. No need to question my grind...cause it's deff there, just gonna go a lil harder. I figure from Jan to April, I'll be in full gritty mode...and then when the weather gets warmer, I'll get a chance to chill. Life is deff a learning experience, and God has deff open-en my mind to different levels.

Lord willing, there will be peace to struggle...but then again, waking up with "nothing to do" is a shitty lifestyle. Boring or interesting, rage on my people, it's 2010 we made through the past 10, cheers to the hustlers... here's to the next 10.

....damn.

it's been a min since last time we blog about anything. When life takes it course, somethings get left behind...I been quite busy with a lot shit, I was gone for the whole summer, and college is a full time job. I been thinking about re-launching the blog, or just trashing it and creating my own. It's depends, but i'm too lazy to do all that work...let's see if we can recreate a better buzz...stay tune.